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I'M IN REMISSION!! Or something. Maybe it's not remission till I'm done, but either way it's good news! Just talked to Dr. Mininberg this morning (thank you Rachel!!) and finally got the real results of my PET scan. So I am PET negative, there's some stuff left in there, but no active cancer cells!

I got "fake" results earlier this week from one of the nurses. All she said was "marked improvement"... that can mean pretty much anything, but she wouldn't say more than that. So Dr. Mininberg thought I knew the results, but I really didn't. I asked Rachel to get him to call me since she has chemo today and that's how I FINALLY got the results. Rachel also got her PET scan results today, was good news but not the very best. She will have to get another cycle of chemo like Dr. Mininberg thought she might, but of course we were all hoping for fewer. But it's still good news cause we are both going to be cured and there is an end in site (the good kind of end).

So now all these damned side effects seem a little more worth it. The pain has gotten really really bad, I have crater sized "zits" on my body (I swear they are an evolved form of zits) that do NOT feel good, bumps on the back of my head that ooze and scab up, pale sickly skin that peels easily, funky looking nails that now require nail polish to cover em, of course there are scars still, the nausea is getting worse, and the whole I'm completely useless and can't do anything without my heart racing and running out of breath really sucks. I spend probably half the time lying on the sofa waiting for my heart to stop thumping for fear it'll just hop right out. But hey, these things are temporary, and the cancer is dying instead of me!