Looking up

Things seems to be going better than usual. My bad week was horrible, but I was able to move more. I was still in pain, still exhausted, heart racing like crazy, but somehow still not as bad as it had been before. Oh, and... my hair is coming in! What's going on?? This makes me feel quite optimistic about the fall semester starting. Now I'm looking forward to it instead of panicking so much.

And it looks like we're moving into a 2 bedroom apartment. *crosses fingers*

Meep!

I want hairy nostrils!

Apparently my lack of nasal hair is causing mucus to run down my throat and into my lungs which is causing my damn cough. Yum!

Guinea pigs!

Pain

So it's getting harder and harder. I'm never fully awake, half the time I have to sit on the bed to catch my breath just to get from the sofa to the bathroom! Every now and then I have some energy, so I go and spend it all just to crash afterwards. Joy. To top it off, the pain never seems to fully go away anymore. The debilitating bone pain that I have for 2 and a half days may finally leave, but my muscles still hurt after. The only time I'm not in pain is when I'm curled up in the bathtub with the shower running down my back. I take long showers every day now, hopefully the water bill won't be too bad. I mean, Tylenol does take care of most of the muscle pain, but I can't live off Tylenol every day. Blah, I have mouth sores this week too. But hey, the Lexapro must be working cause somehow I'm managing to deal with all this. Go Lexapro!

Oh, and though I'm never fully awake, I'm also never fully asleep. Damn roids.

Chemo Pics

Ok, made a little album of pictures I took during chemo today with my marvelous camera. You can see them here.

So a few pieces of news today. Apparently I am now anemic so I've started on the Procrit. I'll have to go in every week to get that shot. Hopefully this will help with the fatigue. I have a prescription for acne medication cause those crazy sore zits from the steroids have got to go. And, I have some happy pills. I don't ever ever want to have a meltdown like I had Sunday night/Monday morning again. I was actually screaming on Monday, but I was able to finally get kinda over it by walking around and forcing myself to concentrate on drinking a glass of water. But why don't we just go and try to avoid something like that happening again altogether? Sounds like a good plan to me.

One last thing. I started out with 4 tumors, the largest was 4 by 6 cm. The 3 smaller ones are gone and the giant one is now only 1 by 2 cm. I think that's what Mininberg said. I'm kinda foggy right now, ask me again in a week or so.

: /

Well, he rubbed some salt in the wound today. He's dumping the webpage for the guild that I spent so much time putting together and using a new one.

I don't understand why he hasn't bothered talking to me at all.

New side effect

So I had to cut my trip to New Orleans short because of a lovely new side effect from the chemo... massive anxiety and depression. I'm used to being anxious and depressed when there's a reason to be, but this time there was no real reason and it was a lot worse than normal. I know being away from home definitely was a reason for me to be anxious, but this was just ridiculous. Now that I've been home for a day I'm feeling a lot better. If I get freaked out here I know how to calm myself down, but anywhere else and I guess it just spirals out of control.